A story of a cat, not Catherine.

This is Ema Hashim. She is my friend. Yes, a friend.... A friend, like a friend, friend.... What?.... She is my friend. Well, I've been trying to search for her video of her performance on last Friday, and I tried to search everywhere on earth, but the only one I got that I can use to put it here is this one. Which is a little bit short, but don't worry, I've seen all of it on her Facebook for sure. Just want to give a little clue on how Ema Hashim looks like in a form of human being. Because she used to be a cat before.

She can sing. You can see her singing in the video above. She is a good singer, isn't it? Yes, a good singer. She once sang me a birthday song on my birthday. That is the best birthday present I ever had since I was born. Even my mom never sing me a birthday song with guitar. But I didn't say my mom is not the best.

Well Ems, I am proud of you, babe. I taktau nak main gitar pun, tambahkan nak perform depan orang ramai kan? You cool je boleh perform depan orang ramai kan. You were doing great on the show, and how I wish I can be there to watch it live. Congratulations on your performance. After this if you change back into a cat form, I kasik whiskas banyak-banyak. Kasik geeemuuuuuuuuuukk sikit. hahaha. I was kidding Ems.

p/s: Sorry I malas nak reach you at your Facebook. Kinda busy lah there. I'm quite off the grid, and was sick after a bad fever.

Cut off.

I realized, the only way to cut off any relation between you and me, is only when any of us die.

I don't want to die, and I don't want you to die either.

Then how can we get away from each other?

Well, it will never happen. That's mean, we can never get away from any of this.

I just, miss you. That's all.

P/s: thank God I am still alive today, after a few day suffering of bad fever, and being suspected of having H1N1 virus. I was almost dying on one night, the only thing left on mind is to perceive, and seriously I thought I was dying for real. Life is back on the track, God gave me the lesson for me to be learn from. To anyone who are sitting exams now, a big big good luck from me. You can do it!

Kedah inks deal to develop US$10bil Merapoh oil refinery

The Pakatan Rakyat-run Kedah state government has signed a memorandum of agreement with Merapoh Resources Corporation to develop a US$10 billion oil refinery.

Located at Yan, Kedah, the refinery will be Malaysia’s largest with a refining capacity of 350,000 barrels per day.

It is expected to create 300,000 jobs and contribute some RM500 million a year to the state coffers when completed in five years’ time.

“We will continue to give assistance to Merapoh and others as we are a business-friendly government,” Kedah Menteri Besar Azizan Abdul Razak said at the signing ceremony.

Foreign funding

Funding for the project will be sourced internationally, with Hong Kong Beijing Star Ltd and Winson Investment Ltd taking strategic stakes.

Both firms will each invest US$5 billion into the project in exchange for 40 percent equity in Merapoh, with the balance 20 percent held by executive chairman Mohd Nazri Ramli, a former geologist with Petronas.

Merapoh will refine crude oil from the Middle East and export to China.

China National Petroleum Company will take up 200,000 barrels per day for 20 years. The state-owned Chinese firm may later on take up a stake in Merapoh.

The deal is believed to have orignated by former premier Mahathir Mohamad some time before he retired in 2003 but was finalized only recently.

Thank God. I don't have to go far to find job.

Tanganmu yang bodoh.

Hairan. Hari-hari pun hairan. Macam hari-harian. Apakah susah untuk mengubah mentaliti yang kita ada? Atau kita yang sengaja membiarkan ianya melarat. Semakin menambah apa yang sudah sedia teruk. Tidak mampukah, atau kita yang malas? Kita tanam, baja dan siram, mananya tak tumbuh segar. Kalau disembur racun, lalu digembur dan ditanam dengan tanaman lain, mudah-mudahan tak ada lagi kulat dalam tanaman itu.

Namun kita tidak. Kita lebih suka hidup dalam selamat yang bahaya. Dalam diam, kita dikelilingi bahaya. Dalam diam juga, kita dibunuh, diseksa dan dikelar hidup-hidup. Banggakah kita, menyiarkan keburukan sendiri, kesilapan diri, kejahatan dan kebodohan diri sendiri. Mata luar, otak asing. Yang pandangnya bukan berambut kerinting seperti kita. Yang pandangnya mempunyai akal yang berbeza. Bila dipandang, apa yang kita anggap kemanusiaan, kebaikan, dan amalan baik saling bantu-membantu yang kita semai dari mulanya warisan budaya kita, tidak akan mudah difahami orang lain.

Semua itu bodoh, pegangan kita tentang hubungan sesama manusia, dimana kita anggap kita perlu mempertahankan hak diri sendiri, bangsa sendiri. Namun kita memperbodohkan bangsa dan hak sendiri. Tanpa disedari kita mencerca bangsa sendiri, dan mata luar yang tidak tahu-menahu tentang apa itu bangsa kita, apatah lagi tidak menyokong. Lagi suka mereka menambah keburukan yang kita besar-besarkan. Kita marah dipanggil bodoh dan malas. Tapi hakikatnya kita yang menampakkan kebodohan dan kemalasan itu.

Apakah tiada cara lain? Sebenarnya ada saja. Kita khuatir, untuk melangkah keluar. Keuntungan diri sendiri perlu dijaga. Guna saja orang lain, gunakan kelebihan mereka, lagi sedap gunakan keburukan orang, untuk masuk duit ke poket sendiri. Arus perdana media kini, konon membela nasib bangsa. Perlukah kita siarkan jambatan yang tak cukup papan? Atau papan tanda yang kurang huruf tulisannya? Sebenarnya itulah kebodohan kita, pentingkan diri sendiri. Memburukkan orang lain, menambah lagi keburukan orang. Dan itu bodoh.

Fikirkanlah, apa yang baik untuk anak bangsa. Coretkan untuk mereka. Kalau bijaknya kamu mencoret madah kata, jangan bodohkan mereka dengan tulisanmu. Kerana mereka itu kadang-kala memang sudah bodoh, namun lagi diperbodohkan, dan kamu marah bila bangsamu dipanggil bodoh. Kerana kamu yang memperbodohkan. Tuliskan apa yang ada di bulan, tuliskan apa yang ada disebalik dunia. Kembangkan akal mereka, bukan dengan kebodohan atau kelemahan, tapi dengan apa yang mereka belum pasti ada di masa akan datang. Agar, mereka tidak bodoh kelak. Tangan kamu, mencorak bangsa, bukan memperbodohkan bangsa.

It was you.

"You know that feeling you get when you just know you're with the right person? That warm, fuzzy feeling right in your chest that let's you know you're safe with this person? That's how you made me feel."

We were all wrong, and yet we are.

So You Think You Can Dance?

So you think you can be more inspiring than her?

Unfortunately, she was cut off during solo in Vegas.


This might be the most beautiful contemporary ever. It is so beautiful that makes you want to cry.

Old Story.

There is something you should know about me.

When there is no shoulder to cry on, I can be the perfect place for you to come. I can give a good big hug, and I'll kiss your hair when you cry. I don't have enough height to do that, but I'll try to stand taller than you. I am the best comforter, where you can feel so close in heart. I'll give a slight rub on your back, and your arm, until I can see a smile on your face again. I'll ask you, "Why?", until you let it all out.

That used to be me. That was a satisfaction, giving comfort to other people.

I've lost all the sense now. It takes time to be one, again. I don't even know who stole the tenderness in me.

More about her.

It is exam week. Something keeps on bothering me. I decided to call my mom, just to let her know that I am having exams this week.

...Tuuutt..tuuuuttt...

Mom : Amir, nape call?

Me : Saja call. La ni minggu ni exam.

Mom : Haaa, belajar rajin-rajin sikit la..

Me : Rajin la ni. Duk baca buku ja.

Mom : Kau dah makan?

Me : Dah, tadi Matin masak. Makan sikit ja, diet.

Mom : Kau diet apenye lagi. Seluar dah saiz 30 dah.

Me : Diet lah. Kalau dak awek lari. Haritu si Farraheen tu pun dah lari dah mak.

Mom : Laa. haritu baru duk tunjuk time raya ritu tu?

Me : Tu haritu, harini dah lari dah. Takdan la nak bawak pi jumpa mak nanti.

Mom : Biar jelah. Kau tu belajar pun tak habis lagi. Belajar dulu apa pun, nanti dah ada duit senang sikit, orang yang cari kita. Kau pun cari yang lawa-lawa macam tu, memang cepat la lari. Duk KL pulak tu. Lain kali cari yang duk kampung kampung je. Macam adik tu. Duduk la dalam hutan tu tak lari kemana. *Adik is my older brother*

Me : Yelatu. Kalau Amir cari yang duk dalam hutan gak, complete set semua kawin dengan orang hutan. Kakak tu dah betui-betui hutan dah. Takpala, malaih nak pikiaq dah pasal tu. Lek dulu sat. La ni nak exam ni. Pikiaq exam dulu apa pun.

(Talked about another stuff)

Mom : Dah la, kau nak cakap ape lagi ni? Pi baca buku tu.

Me : Takdak apa dah.

Mom : Jangan lupa semayang. Kau tu cukup malas nak semayang. Duk rumah pun tak semayang.

Me : Semayang laaaaaa..

Mom : Bagi salam sikit.

Me : Assalamualaikum.

Mom : Haa, ingat dah tak reti bagi salam dah.

Conversation ended.

My mom tak reti cakap slang kedah. Jadi pelat camana taktau kalau dia cakap.

Goodluck to me, pray for me. Amin.

Eat more.

Not bad. Simple yet delicious. Just bringing some friends to a new place. Traditional 국수 (Geuksu) which is made from a traditional noodles and mix with vegetables like kimchi, tofu and other stuffs. The 만두 or dumpling is fine too. Somehow the table is so small. Feel free to ask how to make it there.

Kosong-kosong lah.

Ayah selalu melawak, "Kawinla dengan amoi Korea yang kaya-kaya". Habis tu, awat dia tak cari awek mat saleh yang kaya-kaya masa dekat UK dulu. Fair la kan? Main-main ja lah. Jangan marah. Nanti ada la tu sorang dua. Tak larat nak tertunduk-tunduk kot mak nanti.